Heigh Ho (with an accent on the Ho)

[muninnhuginn]

(To explain, the notion that some of Shakespeare's comedies, Twelfth Night's probably the best example, are not entirely comedic and, indeed do not, for all characters, have a "happy ending" can be neatly summarised in the two words heigh and ho. Not my idea, but I've always rather liked it.)

So, on the "heigh" side:

• the blood tests done three months ago show nothing at all unusual
  
• I have different second line pain killers that shouldn't leave me in a state of calmly plotting murder when I stop taking them
  
• we're not trying any extra drugs, say the anti-malarials, yet

On the "ho" side:

• the blood tests done three months ago show nothing at all unusual, so we still don't know what's wrong
  
• I have different second line pain killers and I really seem to need them more and more
  
• we're not trying any extra drugs, say the anti-malarials, yet: the rheumatologist seems to be waiting for something to get worse first

And the lets-sample-every-possible-out-patient-clinic saga continues. I go back to the rheumatologist in six months ("unless things get worse before then" he said), am still waiting for the ophthamologist's appointment to come up (six month waiting time) and now have to a the dermatologist too.

Ho hum. It's all such a nuisance, both the symptoms and the rapidly multiplying visits to out patients.

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[muninnhuginn]

I think, since the symptoms are on a level where, with the current drugs, they're either almost not there or a mild nuisance, everything's being kept to a minimum. (Hell, at least one GP has listened, once. I've had bad joints and poor circulation for most of my life, but there's always before been a way to dismiss it. I loathed and resented my GP's over-protectiveness when I was pregnant, but I'm beginning to appreciate her proactive attitude in sending me off to the rheumatologist last year.) I think the Parvo virus test has been done twice, the blood factors for Lupus once (and I'm fairly sure my mother did have this and possibly a great aunt on my mother's side too. I didn't know it was fashionable). Both, like Lyme disease hard to track down. Lyme disease in this country gets coverage in in the press in relation to people engaging in water sports, canooists and such like, and therefore coming into contact with rats (the which are increasing throughout the UK). I do remember warnings when we were in Austria and Germany in 1998 (scary: if I picked it up then it was while I was pregnant; I avoided forests and concentrated on F1 cars, however!). I used to do a lot of rambling in the north of England on moorland or in pine forest, so the problem there was the midges rather than ticks. Midges love me. I will ask, however, about Lyme at the next appointment. Lyme disease scares me: I'm allergic to a whole heap of antibiotics so the cure could be worse than the symptoms.

What interests me about all these "diseases" with bundles of symptoms is the neurolgical impact. My sense of smell isn't what it was. It improved, typically, during pregnancy, but has never "calmed down" again. It's interesting rather than a nuisance. But remarking to a companion that lamp post A smelled different to lamp post B and you wonder whether different dogs had visited gets some very odd responses! And mood changes?

I'm sure at the moment, however, the non-diagnosis is both a burdon, since there's only symptomatic treatment, and a help (nowt like being a mystery!): I get referred to other people and repeat appointments. At least I'm not having things dismissed as mere small blonde woman being hysterical. I saw the damage that kind of attitude did.

The checklist is interesting. And they're always useful, especially when the brain disappears just before a hospital appointment (this time I didn't shake like a leaf!). We have our own single-item checklist at the hospital: can I play the sax as much as I want?

Anyway, all information is useful. I've read and bookmarked. Thanks again.

[pickledginger.livejournal.com]

Hope some of it's helpful ...

... interesting about the sensitized sense of smell - that's a new one on me! might be hormonal ... mood swings certainly can be!

be well